Bad Mood now !!

i was very angry just now..don't understand y x'mas eve can be like that !!!! please don't ask me go out without planning everything !!!!!

just now i saw a lots of 'high class' person..I'm not desired to be that kind of person,but for no doubt,i hope someone is with me....but i don't want to admit that I'm lonely.. I'm not lonely !!!!

listening love songs now
~~ Way back into Love ~~


I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it true without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!
Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh.
Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.

Boring Sunday

since i already finish housework,i think i can have peace Sunday.mum has no excuse to nug me today.. i got car now,but don't know where can i go.. it is time for me to think properly for my career..salary is an important element to be considered.not enough money,no entertainment.maybe it is one of the reasons i don't want hang around n forced to choose to stay at home.

i am wondering whether i should go out later or stay at home..i am not tired,but lazy to go out.because i have no special things to buy for myself,n of course,i don't want waste money.i got to plan my salary every month for studies..

eldest sis n second sis are gone for shopping..for me,they only know how to enjoy n entertain themselves.they only know how to blame me n Mandy..it is a BIG joke for me.i don't even bother them.i will just continue whatever i am doing now since they didn't appreciate whatever i have done..eldest sister already decided to get marry with bf..i am not excited about the 'good' news..i has bad impression about their relationship..


boring Sunday again ~~~

22 dec

wah,finally got time to on9 today..even though i was busy like hell for last 2 months,i still feel like it is nothing actually.. maybe it is routine for me since i choose to work n study at the same times..2 more years to go..must gambateh rrr !!!!!

i was back from company trips n outstation for work,felt very nice.i found that i like to stay with others actually,it is happy feeling..i like it.. ^^ CNY is coming soon.i have to make my decision now:stay or leave ??anybody can tell me or guide me how to do??i need your help now !!

until today,there are still lots of question mark in my mind..y they always appear in the dream... i don understand... it is weird..god,tell me please...

very blur now..... ZZZZzzzzzzzzZZZz...